A Few 39.5 off Passes by a Novice

I think my skiing peaked back in 2015. I ran a few 39.5 off passes back then. I only cut to 41 off one time. Two of the passes were at slower speeds as noted on the videos. Now in 2021 at age 63, I can not seem to focus on the water and get comfortable with my balance, but I still enjoy it.